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Yesterday I switched to iTunes in order to have that lovely Now Playing thing on the right. Wasn't too happy about it, since I tend to get attached to my programs, and I've been using Windows Media Player for forever.

Started messing around with iTunes. Discovered the radio.

There's like 20 classic rock / sixties / good music stations! More than that really! One all Beatles station! One all Stones station! One station that mentions The Who in the description! One station that makes a reference to The Monkees in the name! I mean, MAN! I couldn't believe it. I love iTunes. I just kinda sat there staring at it and going "oh my god".

Well, and then I started dancing around and singing to I Think Therefore I Rock And Roll. Oh yeah.

Here's the results of an incredibly accurate test I took at ColorQuiz.com. I've underlined some of the things I think especially apply to me, though I'm sure there's a LOT more.

Existing Situation :: Having difficulty making progress and unwilling to put forth further effort. Seeking more comfortable conditions where she can avoid anything disturbing.

Stress Sources :: Has lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. Feels overtaxed and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground and still pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity. This subjects her to intolerable pressure from which she wants to escape, but she cannot bring herself to make the necessary decision. As a result she remains firmly involved in the problem and can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it–he cannot leave it alone and feels she will only be at peace when she has reached her objective.

Restrained Characteristics :: Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.

Desired Objective :: Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. Longs for interesting and exciting things to happen and wants to be admired for her charm.

Actual Problem :: The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.

Actual Problem #2 :: The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She reacts by seeking outside confirmation of her ability and value in order to bolster her self-esteem. Inclined to blame others so that she may shift the blame from herself. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.

"unwilling to put forth further effort" :: I get good marks. I like getting good marks. I don't study or do anything extra. I want better marks, but I don't want to study or do the extra stuff.

"cannot bring herself to make the necessary decision" :: I hate making decisions, especially when other people are involved. Because if it turns out wrong, it's my fault. I made the decision. So I'd prefer to let someone else make the mistake, thanks.

"she will only be at peace when she has reached her objective" :: I don't know what my objective is exactly, but I always have a To Do list or goal for the week or whatever. When I'm not doing it and being bored, I feel guilty and think "I really should be doing this, but I don't want to".

"feels forced to compromise" :: I often put other people's needs before my own. This can be rather stressful, because I'm not doing what I want to do, I'm just being nice. Which is nice. But bad.

"fantasy" :: What? Fantasy? No, I've never fantasized about living in the sixties. And dating George Harrison. While secretly married Keith Moon. After I stopped going out with Mike Nesmith, of course. Though we're still good friends. I mean… No. Me? Fantasize? Never!

"longs for interesting and exciting things to happen" :: I sometimes wish my life could be like a soap opera or something and have something incredibly strange, or maybe even sad or bad, happen. Though I do feel guilty sometimes for wishing something bad would happen. Not to other people really, or anyone in particular. But not to myself either, so I don't know.

"meaningless activities" :: A lot of the stuff I do on the computer is meaningless. Sorting files that I'm never going to use. Often I'll go to sleep and try to figure out what the heck I did all day. I know I was on the computer, but I couldn't seriously have spent all those hours answering questions, reading Wikipedia, etc?

"a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy" :: I don't like people who are better at me. Well, not really, I mean, I respect them. But it makes me feel bad. It's not their fault they're smart, I mean, good on them for being… uh… good! But when I'm around people who are smarter than me, I feel inadequate, definitely.