I watched a few of my videos and realized they weren’t as bad as I thought they were. Way back when I originally did them, I couldn’t stand to watch myself, but now I guess I’ve kind of put it behind me and can watch it. Watching the videos has however confirmed that I absolutely hate the profile of my face. There’s too much cheeks and my mouth sticks out. But I know no one likes to read about what people hate about how they look, so I’ll leave it at that.

My first video got a ton of comments about what a bad actress I am. Maybe I’m just trying to make myself feel better about it, but I was playing a character who is nothing like me. And I was reading from a script that I didn’t exactly have time to memorize, nor was the script written by me. I knew the person who wrote the script (and created the character) would be watching, so I didn’t feel I could really change it around to how I wanted to play it. I didn’t feel like the character belonged to me, I was just borrowing it, so I didn’t want to change it.

I always seem to get these kinds of characters that are so unlike me. In the play in grade 10, I was (well, in my opinion, at least) the leader of a group of four female superheroes who lived in a retirement home along with a cast of other superheros. I don’t remember if we had a collective name, but we each represented an element, and I was fire, so I think that makes me the leader. Like the red power ranger (before Tommy came in, I mean), you know? And since I was fire, I had a firey personality. I, along with the other three girls in my group, was in love with the main male superhero, and *I* was the one who had to say the line, which I totally forget, but which made shuffleboard (or some other old folk’s sport) into a sexual thing.

The teacher who wrote the play said he had written the roles for each of us specifically — after our attempt at doing “Plan 9 From Outer Space” failed miserably — so that really confused me. Me! Of all the people in the play, the quietest, shyest one has to say this ridiculous line! And later when each of us elementals had to say one word from the sentence “you! are! a! bitch!” *I* of course had to say “bitch”!

Now the me of this blog has no problem with that. With any of that! But the real life me, the me around people? I think these things, but I don’t say them. If I happen to be playing shuffleboard with Spiderman and the game happens to remind me of sex, I might make some witty “Three’s Company” type comment in my mind, but I could never say it out loud!

So what was I talking about? Yeah, I don’t know why people give me these characters. But they always do! Do they think I’m actually a good enough actress to be able to step out of my comfort zone and play this wacky not me character? Do they think I’m a terrible actress and want to see me struggle to play someone I’m not? I don’t know! It doesn’t make any sense!

And yeah, video blogs. I’ve always wanted to do those (real ones), but I just can’t. I like making videos, editing videos. But there’s not much to edit in video blogs, unless I want it to look like the Lonelygirl videos, with the jump cuts. I don’t know if Lonelygirl was the original one to do that, but whenever I see jump cuts on YouTube, I think Lonelygirl. Which I’m proud to say, I’ve been clean of that series for many months. It got pretty terrible after Bree left. And Taylor! And Spencer! They were the coolest characters. It was hard. I didn’t want to just stop watching in the middle of the series, even though I hadn’t really been watching for a long time. Like when I happen to be downstairs when my mom is watching a TV show, I have absolutely no interest in the show, but once I’ve started watching it, I have to keep watching to see how it ends, you know?

But yeah. I want to do video blogs, but my Lonelygirl spinoff videos kind of put me off that. Plus, what if someone recognizes me? I’m supposed to be dead in that series! It kind of ruins the… the… suspension of disbelief? I don’t know, some movie term. Anyway, I don’t want that, because again, I don’t own that character.

What else? Nothing to edit, check. Same person, different character, check. Oh yeah! Video blogs are boring! Again, with the one shot! Who wants to watch that? And what do I have to say? Nothing! (Disregard those five years of blog posts you might see on this site… they mean nothing…)

And even if I did have something to say, telling it to my camera, saying it aloud, it’s going to sound stupid. Even though I wouldn’t be using a script, I would still go over it in my head, figure out what I’m going to say, and it’s going to sound rehearsed, and that looks stupid. If I was going to do a video blog, I’d have to take the camera and start talking, not even think what I would talk about. But then I’d have nothing to talk about, and I’d just be sitting there “hmm… well… yeah… I guess… yeah…”. Booooring!

I have one little tape in my video camera that I’ve been using at various times for the past year or so when I see something interesting and want to tape it. One, because I might get some cool stuff, and two, to tape over my awful unedited fvlogs. Mostly it’s boring stuff, like me throwing socks at my cat and him running around trying to catch them, or the reflection of some visualizations on Windows Media Player in my glasses, but there might be some neat stuff in there I’ve long since forgotten. I don’t plan on watching it until I fill up the tape, which will be a long time yet.

A couple months ago, we had some orange ice cream (yum!) and some chocolate sauce and I put them together, but it was the wrong kind of chocolate sauce and it was really gross, so I ended up not eating it. I took it downstairs to pour it out in the sink, but then realized, why waste it? Why not tape it going down the drain? It looked pretty cool, all orange and brown and swirly like, and I poured it all down the drain. Then I realized I hadn’t pressed record. That pissed me right off.

Anyway, I need to work on my Communications website project, which I’m still not quite done, and start work on my Flash project. And I really need to work on my Creative Writing stuff and think of some smart alecky response to the assignment she’s given us today. So… ta ta.

No, wait, I lied. APRIL FOOLS AHAHAHA.

Speaking of that, I April Fooled myself today. Twice? Maybe?

The first time was in Peer Tutoring. I was marking the city projects the class did (drawing a map of a city and labelling it in French and fun stuff like that), which was pretty scary, because I mean, *I* am in charge of these kid’s marks! Their actual marks! For a project! AHHH! But anyway, I had messed up when I wrote something down and needed to white it out, so I took out my white out but… no white stuff! I think I lent it out to a kid in my other Peer Tutoring class the day before, so they must’ve used it all up. I thought that maybe someone was playing a joke on me, so I quietly put it back in my pencil case and hoped that no one saw me looking at this white out thing like an idiot.

But the really funny thing that I’m sure it was actually me that did, was a nice email I got in my inbox. “i am coming to kill you” it said. Which would’ve been pretty scary, except for the header saying “You have received a message from FutureMe.org!”. So yeah, that kind of spoiled it. But I remembered writing the email to myself and how absolutely hilarious I thought it was, and that made it all worth it.

But actually what I was going to talk about was drumming! BA DA DUM CSSSH! I saw the “Final 24″ episode on Keith Moon the other day, which detailed the final 24 hours of his life, but of course, since that would be kind of boring, it’s actually half about his entire life, which I think is kind of a jip. I saw the one on Jim Morrison a little while ago, and god was it annoying! At every commercial break, they make a lame little joke like “he’s enjoying listening to music now, but in thirteen hours… the music will be over“. Which, that one was actually slightly funny, because The Doors have a song called “When The Music’s Over”. Which is on the album “Strange Days”, which I initially really hated, but I’ve realized there are actually a few good songs on it. But that show was just so annoying, because they used to same format for every joke, and made it sound so dramatic when it really wasn’t.

But I was watching the Keith Moon one, and they showed Gene Krupa, who I’ve obviously heard of, since I’m a drummer myself. They said he influenced Keith Moon’s style and they showed a clip of each of them side by side — and my god! He is just like Keith! Or rather, Keith’s just like him! So much of his mannerisms, they were taken from Gene Krupa! It was, like, mindblowing! So yeah, now I think Gene Krupa’s pretty damn cool.

I’ve been trying to say “damn” more recently rather than “the eff word” because even though I don’t really have a problem with “the eff word”, I realized it would be kind of hypocritical to use it all the time, because when other people use it all the time I think how they’re overusing it and it kind of loses its effectiveness, you know? It’s not that I’m wussing out or anything, because I’m not. I just like… I don’t know. Maybe I am wussing out. I don’t know, man.

So, that’s that for my stream of consciousness blog of the day. I haven’t done one quite like this in a long while. And it was kind of fun. Whenever I do these types of blogs, I like write real fast and have to backspace a lot because I always make stupid mistakes because I want to get it all out right away and it’s like that when I’m typing and I know someone’s watching, I always make dumb mistakes. And I used to always get pissed at people who would write something and make a mistake and keep writing, but then realize they made the mistake and backspace all this stuff just to fix the mistake, but now I do that too, so I’ve got to stop being hypocritical about that too.

Anyway, I really am done now. Should I look this blog over? Nah, let’s just keep it in it’s pure, unedited glory.

Firstly, as I’ve known for a long while, I want to do everything. Everybody tells me it’s impossible and I’ve found myself believing them. That’s why I’ve always hated making decisions and had other people make them for me instead — not because I’m afraid I’ll make the wrong choice, and so that I’ll have someone else to blame for doing so — but because I can’t choose just one thing.

It kind of blows.

I’m good at a lot of things, but because I want to do everything, I can’t just focus on one thing and perfect my skills at that one thing. It’s like a video game for me. I’m not particularly well versed in videos games, so I’ll just use Pokemon as an example, even though the old school Pokemon I’m used to wasn’t quite like this, if I recall correctly. Some people will raise their Pokemon’s hit points to the max, then they’ll raise their strength, then their defense, and so on and so on. Me, possibly because of my OCD-ish-ness, I like everything to be the same. I want to get my level to 10 and my hit points to 10 and my strength to 10, and then I’ll work on raising them all to 11, so I’m always equally good at everything, and I have no weaknesses. Neither way is really fast to become to ultimate Pokemon or whatever, but my way is just more balanced. I mean, you can have a Pokemon that’ll knock your first dude out in one blow because he’s so strong, but then if your opponent brings out another guy and he can kill this super strong Pokemon in one blow because his HP is so low, that’s just not cool, man.

Saying to me “okay, pick one thing to do for the next four years” just plain doesn’t work. That’s not my philosophy.

Speaking of philosophy, I found myself browsing some philosophic theories on Wikipedia today and I realized that philosophy is just using big words to give crazy ideas merit. Case in point: solipsism. Sounds pretty professional, don’t it? I’ve always personally believed in this theory somewhat, but didn’t know there was a word for it. I just thought it was some crazy thing no one else would ever think of. Basically, it’s the whole “I’m real and everyone else is a robot” concept, but they’ve worded it so it doesn’t sound quite so wacky. I’m not one for skirting around the issue, I just like to say it, plain and simple, so one thing I know I won’t be doing for the next four years is philosophizing.

But back to me being awesome. I’ll play drums a lot one week, and then won’t play again for a month. It’s that time again and I’ve found myself pretty bored by most of the same old songs. So, as always, I find something new to try out. Yesterday it was “The End” by The Beatles, with Ringo’s quasi-drum solo. Well, it is a drum solo, because it’s just the drums, but it’s pretty short, so that’s why it’s only quasi. I’m used to drum solos like “Moby Dick”, yannow?

Anyway, way back when I first started with the drums, I took one look at “The End” and it was over. Nope. I could never play that. But after about fifteen minutes or so yesterday, I had it down, which makes me feel satisfied that, yes, I am improving. I also took one look at “Honky Tonk Women” way back when, and couldn’t ever imagine being able to play something while opening and closing the hi-hat, I mean, fuck! That’s just impossible!

I managed to track down the peer tutoring teacher today and filled out the form with all the “why are you taking this class?” type questions. I put French as my preferred subject to teach and she told me there were two French classes during that period: one applied French class with a teacher who I don’t know and one alter-ed French class (which she said was people who are “very low functioning in French”) with my grade 10/12 teacher. I wasn’t sure exactly what the alter-ed class would be like, so I was nervous about, and I didn’t know the other teacher, so I was nervous about that too. She suggested I try the applied class first since it was a bigger class and so the teacher would probably need more help.

Off I went, still not entirely sure which class I was going to choose even when I was standing right in front of them. Well, the applied class was the first one I came across (which was actually done by my devising, as I chose to go down to the end of the hallway and then upstairs rather than up the stairs by my locker, which would’ve led me to the other class first), and the teacher did say to try there first, so I did.

I looked in and knocked and said something terribly fast and probably hoarsely (what with my cold): “hi, I’m from the peer tutoring class, and I don’t know if this is a good time, but I wanted to know if you wanted a peer tutor for this class?”. It was awkward, to say the least. She was in the middle of talking to the class and everyone was kind of looking at me. She said “let’s go out into the hall”. We now are all aware that that means bad, if my experience last week if anything to go by. Some of the kids in the class were laughing and saying something like “no, she doesn’t want you”. I don’t think it was a “you” specifically thing, it was just a “she doesn’t want anybody”.

I don’t know this teacher, but what I have heard about her hasn’t been the best. But I always figured, well, students just naturally don’t like their teachers, so she’s probably just like any other teacher. But now, that through my own experiences, I can say she did give off the vibe that is she is typically described of having. Of course, I will still give her the benefit of the doubt; after all, I did just interrupt her class.

“I don’t quite understand how this peer tutoring thing works — Who is your teacher? — What are you supposed to do?” I wasn’t expecting the Spanish Inquisition (obviously), so I said something like “if you don’t need a peer tutor, that’s fine”, hoping to get out of answering the question, but I guess she must’ve asked me again or told me to go on, because I stuttered about “well, umm, this is my first day in the class, so I don’t really know yet, but umm, they like help out and stuff, and like… umm, I’m not really sure… like taking attendance and like running errands… umm they can like help students when you’re doing stuff and they can do other stuff like umm… stuff like that, but I don’t really know yet”.

“Are they there the whole semester?” Yes. “The whole period?” Yes. “Every day?” Yes. Well, umm, I think so, I mean, this is just my first day and all. From these questions, I figured that she’s had a peer tutor in the past who never showed up (since I can remember peer tutors in grade nine as such), but my sources say she hasn’t.

“I’m not really sure if I need you for this class yet, so come back tomorrow morning and I’ll let you know”. Oh, umm… okay… thanks…

I was kind of upset the other day when my website layout design was rejected in a contest. Didn’t make me feel all that good. But I mean, that’s what rejection is.

However, I am really *hoping* for a rejection tomorrow morning.

However, although it looks like she is going to say no, I’m fairly certain she is going to say yes, because my life just needs more fucking misery in it, doesn’t it?

Actually, thinking about it now, I can’t remember exactly why I wanted her to say no, other than it being awkward at the beginning if I were going to be in her class. I don’t really want to think about it though. That’s how I’ve been handling this whole peer tutoring thing; this weekend, I kept remembering “oh no, I have to go find that teacher for peer tutoring on Monday”, but I immediately made myself stop, which was pretty awesome. I wish I could stop myself thinking more often. Turns out I didn’t have to worry at all about finding the teacher, as that was actually fairly simple, and she seems pretty cool.

I don’t know why, but I do feel everything happens for a reason. Don’t ask me how I think this happens, though, because I have no idea. My logic tells me there’s no way things like this could be controlled, but experience shows me that things just work out in the end. During a lot of my past classes, I felt like I was learning nothing, but later on I realize it was actually worth it. So you know, this could be worth it.

But honestly, at this point in my high school career, I’d rather take the no-misery class and not learn anything, rather than the stressful class that there’s a chance I could learn something in. There’s also the chance that I won’t learn anything in that class, and from what I’ve heard, that wouldn’t be uncharacteristic considering the teacher. And that’s also not to say that I wouldn’t learn anything in the other class; I probably would learn something. But I’m really done with all the unnecessary stress that high school causes. It’s no fun, and I just want to have fun.

I got my Alex Van Halen issue of “Modern Drummer” finally. And I was thinking, if someone asked me who my favourite drummers are, I know I would say “Keith Moon, John Bonham, and Alex Van Halen”. And maybe “the guy from Boston”. But I just feel saying Keith and John… it’s just so clichéd. For one, I can’t play anything Keith can, and thus saying he’s my favourite makes me look stupid. But Keith is why I started drumming. But why did Keith make me start drumming? Okay, so he’s funny and cute and all that. But he made it look fun. Why are John Bonham and Alex Van Halen also my favourite drummers? Because it’s fun to play them. Why don’t I like Joey Kramer? Because he plays the same thing every time. It’s not fun to play him.

Fun. I just want to have fun. Is that too much to ask?

But alas… the next day came, and no Toronto show to be found. Van Halen returned to Toronto on Friday to play another show, and the bootleg was posted shortly thereafter. Three weeks later, and still no boot of the first show! Of course, all the other show boots are present and accounted for.

I stopped constantly checking the website awhile ago, but happened to check again today and saw a new post about the first Toronto show. [cue heaven music]. The poster says it will be posted soon. I quickly register an account at the site… but then find it needs to be approved by an administrator before I can access the site.

Hours later, the email notification pops up saying my account is approved. I race to the forums in search for my show… but it’s not there yet. Hmm. “Soon” was over twelve hours ago.

I previously downloaded a few songs from the second show, but only listened to one or two of them. And even though I complain that it’s the same exact routine show after show, it’s still not the same, you know?

I browse the site a bit more, read random topics. Of course, any topic with the word “Alex” in it catches my eye, so I happened upon “Alex’s drum solo”. And what’s this? “Drum solos are boring”? “They should just get rid of the solo”?! Wha-ha-hat?!?

Oh, sure. Eddie Van Halen can do as many fucking solos as he likes, but when Alex does one little solo, everyone complains?

There’s the story of Keith Moon, who hated doing drum solos. He claimed to have done only one in his entire life, and during this one solo, someone proceeded to yell out “drum solos are boring!”. So, I, despite being a drummer, decided that, yes, Keith is obviously right about everything, and drum solos are terribly bad.

But I’ve been to quite a few live shows where there’s been a drum solo, and it seemed to me that the crowd always loved them! I don’t quite know why, as even I don’t always love them, but it just gets the crowd going. So I figured that times have changed and drum solos are now acceptable.

Apparently not. But whatever. Alex can… solo my drums any day. Yeah.

So, today is Keith Moon’s birthday. I shall be listening to my Keith Moon playlist, which is considerably longer than it should be. I had a dream about Keith last night, funnily enough. He was stubborn, though, and it didn’t last long.

I had an idea for a layout last night which had me looking at pictures of David Lee Roth, Steven Tyler, etc etc, and felt a little bad for ogling their pictures while it is Keith birthday but… I couldn’t help it. Anyway, Robert Plant trumps all of the 80s rockers in terms of hair, but then I looked at Roger’s hair, and it’s real close.

Yesterday I played drums for quite a long time. I decided I wanted to learn some Van Halen, but I failed in that attempt. I did however look at some “learn to play drums” videos where this guy tried to teach me how to hold a stick this really strange way which I must not have been getting because, dude, we have fingers for a reason!

Anyway, then I decided my snare shouldn’t sound all tinny like it does, so I started fiddling about with it and found the silvery thing on the bottom that makes noise wasn’t tight or something, so now it sounds like a real snare!

So, after discovering that, I was happy, and decided to keep playing, because, hey, I was never a bad drummer — it was all the snare’s fault!

I had my drum play list on and at one point I was getting fed up with it not playing good songs, so then it plays… “Radar Love”. That was actually I think what got me to fix the snare, because I couldn’t play that song. I mean, I still can’t, but still. Later on, “Walk This Way” came on. I put it on the playlist because I thought it would be cool to learn to play, but I never could actually figure it out. But whaddaya know, I started playing around and I got a decent sound!

After that, I was pretty tired, so I went downstairs. My brother asks if I was playing “Walk This Way”, so I proceeded to squeal loudly and jump up and down because no one can ever figure out what I’m playing… and plus, I figured this out myself, too!

So, happy day.

Today, ehh.

Got my schedule. As expected. Study Hall, Law, International Business, Yearbook. Photography, Writer’s Craft, Communications, Yearbook.

Sounds good, right? But my one favourite class is missing. As expected. Computer Science should be where Writer’s Craft is. Now, I did really want to take Writer’s Craft, but Computer Science so much more. And my guidance counselor told me “remember, we’re changing computer science to where writer’s craft is, remember”. So I remembered, so now I have to make an appointment to get it right. Should go as planned, unless class is full, at which point I’ll attempt to get into the class as a peer tutor, despite the fact I’ve never taken Grade 12 Computer Science. And if still no, maybe the first week I can convince the computer teacher to convince guidance to let me in. And if still no… then someone is going to die.

We CompSci’ers can be dangerous. Mwhahaha!

Yesterday was a nice day. I played drums for probably the first time in about a year. Has it really been that long? Wow. Anyway, it was nice. But I mean, it’s so much easier and funner to play guitar because it can ACTUALLY SOUND LIKE THE SONG. Drums on the other hand… not so much. Unless I’m playing “Moby Dick” or summat, and in the case, it wouldn’t sound like the original if I’m playing it. I figured out how to play “When The Levee Breaks”, though. I read some drum tutorials on the internet today and found that my big problem is, uh, I think this is the word, syncopation. But yeah.

I also was cleaning out my bookmarks, so that was fun. I started looking at some drawing tutorial sites and attempted to draw myself. I was really pleased with it, although I only did half the face, because I knew I would screw it up if I tried to do the other half. Now looking at it, it’s not as great as I thought it was, but still probably the most realistic drawing I’ve ever done. I don’t really like to do realistic drawings. I prefer cartoony exaggerated noses and stuff.

Last night we went to my cousin’s stag and doe party. It was nice. And Gerry’s last name is Marsden, apparently.

Every year around this time I have a discussion with my mom about George Harrison and the matter of his birthdate. I personally go by February 24, because as I know it, he was born at like 11 something at night on the 24th, but all his life he thought it was the 25th. But, seeing as some people still don’t agree with this, I propose a two day celebration instead. After all, he deserves it. He is George Harrison, after all!

So I was thinking today. Cleaning out my bookmarks again and found some old Helpgame sites. Personally, I think the Sgt. Pepper outfits were never real, seeing as we only have the one angle of them and seeing as they seem a bit more detailed than the rest. But there was that site that had a bunch of sprites from the game, and there were the suits! So now, I just don’t know.

But since no one really knows what I’m talking about, this “Helpgame” thing, I shall get to my true point. Since Helpgame no longer exists (*tear*), I decided we need a new game. I was thinking maybe I could make another Beatles game, but then I realized I wouldn’t ever finish it because I’m just not dedicated to the Beatles enough.

So who am I dedicated to? That’s right.

My first idea was to make it pretty much just like Helpgame. I’m always on about “boo copying” but I mean, that’s only when people copy me, right? ;) And don’t you love how “me” looks surrounded by em’s? I do.

Anyway, then I was like, well, I don’t want to do exactly the same thing. But there’s like the concert at the end, and that could be something like Lifehouse. And then I’m like, hell, why not just make the entire thing Lifehouse?

Yes yes. Awesome.

There are several obstacles here, though.

First of all, I don’t know how to code tile-based games. I do have a tutorial that seems nice, but I mean, it takes time to learn how to do these things.

Secondly, even if I can make these tile-based games, I’m going to need to make it so that there can be multiple players, like with Helpgame. And no way am I going to be able how to figure out how to do that!

Now, that truly would make the game awesome, but I simply am not capable of that. If someone else is, then please PLEASE do this.

So, instead of learning ActionScript and whatever else, why not use something I already know? Sure, I could make a text-adventure in Java, but, eh, boring!

Why not make an RPG with RPG Maker? Duh!

I made a few of these games for my friends on their birthdays a few years ago. Pretty awesome of myself, I do think. I wish someone would make *me* a game. It’s just no fun if I make them for myself.

I did make one pretty cool game based on The Monkees “Fairy Tale” episode. Actually, I remembering telling one of my online Monkee friends about that a loooong time ago, and said I would put it on Sunshine Factory, but umm… well, that hasn’t happened. Probably won’t. :/

Another problem I can see with this is the file size. Humungo! Now, while I admit, I don’t think I’ll be getting many people downloading it, it still could be a problem. I can always host it somewhere else, but eh… we’ll see.

First things first though, I need to make this game. One thing I haven’t decided yet is WHO the player will be. Ray seems the obvious choice. It would be nice to have a choice between Ray and Sally though, you know? I mean, it’s like with Pokemon. In Red and Blue you were always that dude, and it wasn’t until like Gold and Silver that you could be a girl. And that was awesome! I don’t want to be an icky boy! But I mean, I think mixing up Sally and Ray’s roles just wouldn’t work.

And ANOTHER thing is that I’ll need some Who midis. I have a bunch saved, but not that many Lifehouse songs, which will obviously have to be the soundtrack. I could probably hire my brother to tab some, but I don’t know how well I would do transcribing ol’ Moonie.

But one thing I DO know, is that in the scene with the camper van, with the air-conditioner, the song will be “Goin’ Mobile”. Ohh yeah.

Also, I’m reading up a bit on Lifehouse, since I need to understand it if I’m making an adaptation of it, and also I need to not get sued by Pete unless of course that means I get to meet him in court, but I also don’t remembering the ending being just “everybody goes POOF!”? I mean, the game needs a goal. The goal is to put on the concert, or, I suppose, if you’re Ray, to get to the concert? So once you achieve this goal you… just go POOF? I don’t know, kind of, well, not much of a reward.

Unless there’s something with the Mirror Door going on, and we see Elvis, Buddy, and Eddie C? But that’s going to be a hell of a lot of pixelly people to make.

But I mean, if that’s the way the story ends, that’s the way it ends. I can’t change it. This is the end, my only friend, the end. Fade to black, roll credits, you know?

So. Well, I don’t know if they’re finished with the school schedules or what. I don’t know if the first day back they’ll say French has or hasn’t been cancelled or what. I’m sort of hoping it was cancelled, because I want to keep Computer Science. But I’m also hoping it’s not, because if it is then I don’t get my French Grade 12 credit. Uuuugh.

Not really much to write about. Not much happening. Yep yep.

Hah.

Went to the mall about bought Led Zeppelin II and Waiting for the Sun (The Doors), haven’t listened to them yet though. Cheap too, which was nice, because it’s getting harder to find a CD under $20 these days.

Played drums a bit. I’d like to think I’m getting better and Living Loving Maid, because I can play it great, but then when I get the music on I get totally messed up. Ah well.

I have actually started working on my chapter notes. I had this nice template thing all set up and it was all prettyful and then I was like “hmm… maybe she doesn’t want any spiffy fonts and stuff” so I just changed it all back to Arial. Ugh. Least it’s not Times New Roman. I mean… ew!

Watched Dead Like Me this morning, it was the Halloween episode AGAIN. Which means the first episode is on next week. Which means WOO HOO! On the recap on the second episode last Monday or whatever, they showed some stuff from the first episode and I was like “HOLY SHIT! I HAVE SEEN THIS!” The image of the little girl running off to the amusement park, that just hit me like WHOA. I *knew* there was a thing with a train! I *knew* I’d seen this before!

Whoa… so it must’ve been like… destiny… or something… that I find this show again. How cool is that? I suppose it’s a good thing I didn’t get *too* into it the first time around, because I wouldn’t have really been able to appreciate it as a little 11 year old girl. It, what am I saying it? I mean Mason, come on!

Ahh, I just laughed at like everything Mason said this episode. Ha ha ha.

Mason: What original member of The Rolling Stones croaked whilst having a drowning accident?
Kid #1: Mick Jagger?
Mason: No, he’s still kind of alive and touring.
Kid #2: Keith Moon?
Mason: NO! That was The &#%@ing Who!
Kid #2: Who?
Mason: THE WHO!
“Dead Like Me”

AH HAHAHAHA. I love him. And Keith. Aww.

There was something else funny too… I don’t remember it though. But I did want some Strawberry Frosted Pop Tarts after the show. Heh heh heh.

Ooh, and I learned how to play Hall of the Mountain King on guitar. Pretty groovy!

Ho hum. What else? Well, I should probably be working on my Dorian Gray thing again. Cheers!

Oh, and I forgot to mention in my last entry, which I’m rather proud of, because I was able to encorporate all the colours of the song bwhaha. But um, yeah, as I was saying, Lord Henry is BLOODY ANNOYING. I mean, in the book, I was just like, “man, this dude just sounds like you put a quarter in him and he spouts of stupid philosophical sayings!” and then the movie just confirmed he’s annoying. Oh, and can I say, Dorian was NOT really that good looking in that movie. AND THE WHOLE MOVIE DEPENDS ON THE FACT THAT HE IS BEAUTIFUL. How stupid.

Anyway, I’m learning Livin’ Lovin’ Maid on drums, and it sounds pretty good, but my brother just refuses to come jam with me. Grr.

Oh, and congratulate me boys, I’m engaged! I mean, uh, I emptied out my inbox! WOOOO! A long time since that’s happened! I mean, I still have my sub index of old Tutorial Help forms, but these are from like last year. But I’m still going to read (okay, okay, skim through) all 413 of the ones that are left, and see if there’s any good suggestions or problems that I still haven’t taken care of. I’ve already added a ton of things to my to do list. Woo hoo.

I was sad today. Because Dead Like Me wasn’t on. But if it was, it was on at like 9 in the morning, and honestly, who’s up at 9 AM? Really! So I’m gonna HAVE TO go to Roger’s and rent it. Oh well. It’s too bad really, because I’m just gonna HAVE TO watch it over and over and have to look at all those AWFUL UGLY PEOPLE on it. Especially that Mason.

Hm. Played a bit of drums. I was having a really off day. Except the bit in Who Are You with the toms. I was all right at that. Gettin’ better. Just could not get the timing right for Whole Lotta Love. Learned the beginning bit of Soul Kitchen on keyboards. Sounds pretty cool. Learned opening of D’yer Maker and Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door (a la GNR) on guitar. And that’s about all I did musically today.

Wait, what am I say, that’s about all I did today, period!

The other day at 8:00 AM they were playing Plan 9 From Outer Space on the Drive In channel, so I had to tape it, since that’s when I leave for school. Almost forgot, too! But I ran back and taped it.

Watched it when I got home.

It was *really* bad. I mean, I knew it was going to be. But it was just really bad.

Not as bad as That’ll Be The Day. Well, That’ll Be The Day was disappointing, not really bad in the sense that Plan 9 is bad. Because Plan 9 is just BAD.

In the beginning, I laughed at how crappy everything looked. I noticed a few times people flubbing their lines, but I’ve noticed that in other old movies as well. There are parts where they could’ve been reading off a teleprompter, but I didn’t really notice any of that. I did see the one guy scratching his head with the gun though – duh!

And oh man, I was supposed to be the Woman Mourner at the beginning, and let me tell you – I coulda done it SO much better than the real actress! I mean you have two lines, why don’t you learn to do ‘em good?

And my one part was really non existant. I was supposed to be the Messenger, who was actually Eros. Though I wouldn’t have minded being Eros, since he has a huge part. “YOUR STUPID MINDS! STUPID! STUPID!” Though Tanna’s funny line is much better “EROS! EROS! WAKE UP! WAKE UP, EROS! EROS, WAKE UP! GOD, WAKE UP EROS! WAKE UP!” Ha ha ha. The one girl didn’t seem to like doing that line, but I would’ve LOVED it!

And as I suspected, the “policeman” was actually my part. Policeman is the same as Jamie. So hah. I actually had about 10 lines. Woo! I’m famous!

Well, actually, since we didn’t do the play, it doesn’t matter.

I was also thinking, maybe they should do a modern day version of Plan 9. They could make it very uncrappy with nice effects and stuff… but would that make it lose its charm? Is that what makes it good to watch? (Well, somewhat good?)

At least you couldn’t do any worse than the original… :)